Life- Love Life Maybe...I dunno.

Here it is Friday March 13th 2009, My life is still as chaotic as ever....I'm still not in a relationship and I want to be in one OoO so very bad!!! There's this guy that I have fallen inlove with almost 2 yrs ago. I love him with all my heart and I would do anything for him....Last night was a very mixed emotion process for me....I stayed with him and I went to Dunlap, TN with him and on the way back he says "see that is how I want my girl to dress and look everyday." I literally bit my tongue so I wouldn't say "Why are you telling me this for, You don't love me and don't care about me." I don't honestly know what to think from this point on!!! I was laying in the bed with him and I was rubbing his back so he could go to sleep and I THOUGHT he was asleep so I rolled over and all of a sudden I feel him right up against me and his arm comes around the side of me and pulls me closer to him. So I do what I usually do and pull his arm up and intertwine my fingers in his....PERFECT MATCH....but anyways.....his thumb is right there at my face and he all of a sudden starts rubbing my face with his thumb!!! I'm thinking to myself what the hell even tho I had a HUGE smile on my face!!! Ok....Someone tell me something please....I really don't know what to think about anything.......Brandie you know more about this situtation than anyone what do you think???????????